Experience

I don't have the motivation
to enjoy these new sensations
savour this new life I'm given
by all your shifting plans
but I know the season changes
so I'll suffer all your rages
and I'll be the little villain
behind your restless hands

I want to go
and I can hardly wait in here
but still I hesitate [in fear]

and I could reach that state
but I know I'll never get there
and I know that you'll be happier back home
and I might want to stay
but I can't admit the failure
and I know that you'll be happier back home

well I won't hang any pictures
so you say I'm like a drifter
and I sold my television
so I sit and wait
for the day I'm back together
but you know that takes forever
for a minute there I wondered
if I would see that day

you tell me what you're thinking
but I get no explanation
should I tell all our friends
that I fucked up
you talk for half an hour
but I don't hear any reason
don't I deserve a reason

if you leave today
just be sure that you say
everything you want to say

© 2006 She Hit Me First